O.k. because I'm a Jew I'm saying happy Chanukah, but really happy holidays to every religion!!
O.k. Every Jew knows that Chanukah means the holiday of light, spending with friends and family, being happy because you get present (O.k. maybe not because of that...) So on the first night of Chanukah I went to be an usher so I left my family right after we lit the candles before time so I can be there too... They only reason that I wanted to be an usher is..... To see the show for free, because I heard it was a good show called, "The Miracle Worker" about Hellen Keller, and I just had to see!! It was a beautiful show, as if I went to broadway just, smaller and it was in Miami... Then intermission, we gathered around and I was pushed to the corner can't see anything (very, very short which is good) and we start singing the Chanukah songs, and I.... Start crying... At first I wanted people to see that I was crying, because for once in my life I didn't want to cry alone, but then I tried to hide my tears because, it's a happy holiday, and I didn't want everyone worring about me. The reason I cried was becasue, I miss my best friend Marina (lolchan in deviant) I imagined what we could have done in the vacation of Chanukah.... It was really hard for me to stop crying, and in the end no one notice except when I went to a friend of mine that was in the cast, she noticed that I cried, and then I cried even more because....She gave me a hug, which no one gave me for a long time because I was crying....(I think I'm going to cry again...) My life wasn't easy at all... Israel broke me into so many pieces, that right now I'm trying to put together again but, it's so hard. Because of Israel, I wrote sad songs since I was in 3rd grade.... I'll never forget what I've gone through, and each time that I think about it, I want to cry....
I hope I didn't ruin anyones holiday, you can just forget it if you want.... I just wanted to let it out.... I mean, I have friends here, but it's not that easy for me to talk, and that makes me lonely, and I never had the greatest time to say.... Any ways please be happy on your holidays and appreciate your best friend, I didn't and I just past the best friend that I always wanted since I was a little girl...